I'm Thinkin', "What the Hell!"

[Toni Star]

( ( A L L H E R L I F E ) )

( ( SH E ' S B E E N G O O D ) )
but now toni is
thinkin' what the hell?
and only at nineteen

i'm losing my grip

mixed feelings are you aware of what you make me feel
ignore baby right now I feel invisible to you like I'm not
annoyance real didn't you feel me lock my arms around
rivalry, specify you why'd you turn away? here's what
turned enemy I have to say I was left to cry there, waiting
nemesis outside there grinning with a lost stare that's
dislike me when I decided why should I care cause you
dislike you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
backstabbed me you you need to listen I'm starting to
backstabbed you trip I'm losing my grip and I'm in this
threatening thing alone am I just some chick you place
insulting beside you to take somebody's place when you
scared of me turn around can you recognize my face you
scared of you used to love me you used to hug me but that
hate me wasn't the case everything wasn't okay I was left
hate you to cry there waiting outside there grinning with a
by association lost stare that's when I decided crying out
distrust me loud I'm crying out loud crying out loud I'm
distrust you crying out loud open your eyes open up wide
avoidance why should I care cause you weren't there when
jealousy I was scared I was so alone why should I care cause
glaring at me you weren't there when I was scared I was
glaring at you so alone why should I care if you don't care
aggravation then I don't care were not going anywhere why
tolerance should I care cause you weren't there when I was
nervous of me scared I was so alone why should I care if
nervous of you you don't care then I don't care were not going

I will be all that you want

crush on me there’s nothing I could say to you nothing I
crush on you could ever do to make you see what you mean
physical attraction to me all the pain the tears I cried still
attraction you never said goodbye and now I know how far
fleeting glances you’d go I know I let you down but it's not
innocent flirting like that now this time I’ll never let you go
shameless flirting I will be all that you want and get myself
chemistry together cause you keep me from falling apart all
temptation my life I’ll be with you forever to get you through
one night stand the day and make everything okay I thought
drunk flirts that I had everything I didn’t know what life could
friends with benefits bring but now I see honestly you're the
enemies with benefits one thing I got right the only one I let
love-hate inside now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
make out buddies and if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
bed buddies cause I would never let you go I will be all that you
stalking me want and get myself together cause you keep me
stalking you from falling apart all my life I’ll be with you forever
playing with each other to get you through the day and make
forbidden love everything okay cause with out you I can’t sleep
past, good I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave you’re all I got
past, bad you’re all I want yeah and without you I don’t know
past, mutual what I’d do I could never ever live a day with out
past, miss me you hear with me do you see you're all I need
past, miss you and I will be all that you want and get myself
current together cause you keep me from falling apart all my
future life my life I will be with you forever to get you through
soul mate the day and make everything okay I will be I’ll be all

i'm thinking "What the hell?"

frenimies you say that I'm messing with your head all 'cause
turned friend I was making out with your friend love hurts
secret friends whether it's right or wrong I can't stop 'cause
partners in crime I'm having too much fun you're on your
acquaintances knees begging, "please stay with me" but honestly
friends I just need to be a little crazy all my life I've been good
average friends but now I'm thinking "what the hell?" all I want
good friends is to mess around and I don't really care about if
great friends you love me if you hate me you can't save me baby
best boy baby all my life I've been good but now what the hell
best girl what what what what the hell so what if I go out on a
drinking buddy million dates you never call or listen to me
party buddy anyway I'd rather rage than sit around and wait
drug buddy all day don't get me wrong I just need some time
family friend to play you're on your knees begging "please stay
confident with me" but honestly I just need to be a little crazy
inner circle all my life I've been good but now I'm thinking
same clique "what the hell?" all I want is to mess around and I
secret keepers don't really care about if you love me if you hate
like family me you can't save me baby baby all my life I've been
hallway hello good but now what the hell la la la la la la whoa
inseparable whoa la la la la la la whoa whoa you say that I'm

run away, run away

mother got up on the wrong side of life today yeah crash the car
father and I'm gonna be really late my phone doesn't work cause
cousin it's out of range looks like it's just one of those kind of days
brother you can't kick me down I'm already on the ground no you
sister can't but you couldn't catch me anyhow blue skies but the
mother-in-law sun isn't coming out no today is like I'm under a
father-in-law heavy cloud and I feel so alive I can't help myself
brother-in-law don't you realize I just wanna scream and lose
sister-in-law control throw my hands up and let it go forget about
mentor everything and run away yeah I just wanna fall and lose
mentee myself laughing so hard it hurts like hell forget about
your hero everything and run away yeah so-so's how I'm doing if
their hero you're wondering I'm in a fight with the world but I'm
teacher winning stay there, come closer it's at your own risk yeah
heard of me you know how it is life can be a bitch and I feel so
heard of you alive I can't help myself don't you realize I just wanna
keeping secrets scream and lose control throw my hands up and let
first name basis it go forget about everything and run away yeah I
last name basis just wanna fall and lose myself laughing so hard it
respect me hurts like hell forget about everything and run away
respect you yeah run away run away run away run away I just wanna
mutual respect scream and lose control throw my hands up and let
protective of me it go forget about everything and run away yeah I
protective of you just wanna fall and lose myself laughing so hard it
mutual protection hurts like hell forget about everything and run
employee away yeah I just wanna scream and lose control throw my
employer hands up and let it go forget about everything and run away
co-worker yeah I just wanna fall and lose myself laughing so hard it
never met hurts like hell forget about everything and run away yeah

credit to lindseyinpain @ Caution 2.0
lyrics by Avril Lavigne.

[Toni Star]

toni rae star

nineteen . mechanic . female

mixed feelings are you aware of what you make me feel
annoyance real didn't you feel me lock my arms around
rivalry, mild you why'd you turn away? here's what
dislike me when I decided why should I care cause you
by association lost stare that's when I decided crying out
glaring at me you weren't there when I was scared I was
aggravation then I don't care were not going anywhere why
last name basis just wanna fall and lose myself laughing so hard it

"Get back to work."
"So how much is this gonna cost me?"

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[Toni Star]

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Wash Jr.

twenty-five . pilot . male?

mixed feelings are you aware of what you make me feel
average friends but now I'm thinking "what the hell?" all I want
first name basis it go forget about everything and run away yeah I

"Well there really isn't much to say. Toni's on Steamhardt and we don't meet up that often. I suppose its complicated and I'm not really sure how i feel about her just yet."

"I guess he's pretty cool. Don't see him very often and such thanks to Serenity and Steamhardt not collaborating often. I'm always a mess when I see him or I'm in the engine room (as per usual) so I imagine he thinks of me as a freak or something... oh well."

[Wash Jr.]

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